Three

I want to update my blog but I just couldn’t. Now I’m forcing myself to write an entry.

A lot has happened for the past three weeks but the top three things that occupied my head were my acads, advo and a thing that I couldn’t quite face, explain or dare say – at least out loud.
First off, my academics were at its usual state – coping. Miraculously, though this really sounds boastful, my grades are still among the top in class despite my preoccupation to advo.
In the conduct of our thesis, I felt isolated against my group. I blame myself for that and I do not blame them for being that way since I rarely attended meetings. Moreover, I only participated in our thesis during its finalization. In any case, it was resolved – unintentionally – by a high grade for the defense. So all’s well that ends well right.
For advo, I’ve been ambitious since the start of my term as ME. So far, I’ve accomplished all that I’ve wanted except for a few glitches this semester. There is only one thing that I regret – I have to be the ‘kontrabida’ just to get things done. But hey, I had the best orientation from the former exec board. I’m scared that I’m pushing too hard that they’d break – I actually don’t see anything wrong with this, professionally.
Suppressed emotions have been haunting me for the past months. I faced two choices; to allow the feeling or exert every inch of my body to push it away. I chose the latter. I have to.